Candles for Sesame

I have started a candle group for Sesame which can be reached at

If you'd like to add a candle just click on an unlit candle and follow
the instructions.

jmcquown...

This is lovely, thank you Julie.

Jeanne Hedge...

I think this website is wonderful, and I also think starting candle
groups is something RPCA people should continue to do.

When Natasha crossed the bridge the week before Christmas, Julie
started a candle group for her. I've kept every message posted here
and made a screen cap of every candle lit there. All the supportive
messages and candles really made me feel better about the whole thing.

Jeanne Hedge

Julie and Sam...

I found this website when Marina's Frank made the journey to the Bridge.
I really liked it so I bookmarked it. I agree with you Jeanne, it
should become a part of our "rituals".

I remember when Selena crossed the Bridge so unexpectedly in August, the
messages I received here helped so much. I didn't really have time to
greive for her because we were headed out of town and I spent the next
several days at the race track. I didn't want to explain to people why I
was crying so I shut her away in a corner of my heart to examine later.
Every time I tried to open that box afterwards it was too painful so
I kind of left her shut away until New Years' Eve. For some reason, as
I was watching the Waterford Ball at Times Square drop she broke free of
the box. I cried and cried. DH asked me what was wrong and my response
was that I felt like I was leaving her behind. It still feels wrong to
have gone forward without her and opening that box still hurts but it is
a little better. One thing I do know is that it was wrong to have tried
to keep the pain away by not thinking about her. Selena is now on my
desktop at work and I think about her every day. I worry that I didn't
take better care of her, that I was a bad Meowmy because I didn't know
she had hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. I worry that I had too many cats
and with Hobbes and Sam both being sick I was too concerned about them
to notice her. Unfortunately, she was a reclusive cat anyhow, but her
last few months she had started spending more time with us at night and
still I didn't realize she was sick.

Oh well, I didn't mean to go on about Selena. I just wanted to say that
I'm glad the candle website helps to ease the pain a little bit.

Hugs and headbutts,
Julie

polonca12000...

Please do not think you were a bad meowmie, because you are anything but
that, Julie.
We are sending lots of purrs and hugs just for you,
Polonca and Soncek

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